It's been grey and rainy outside and it seems we are all a bit down lately. I can't believe we have still been swimming in the lake last Friday and today we are walking around in hoodies and are complaining how cold it became. Summer clothes will soon be replaced by winter ones and swimming will be replaced by skiing. We will be waiting for some sun to shine through the dark clouds and try to use every single moment we get.
Winter will pass again and summer will return. People will come, city will become full of life again. But there will be something that will not be the same. Some people will not return. Will new people be as good as the old one? Will we connect in the same way? Will we find the same stupid jokes?
Greyness makes me depressed. My head is still full of memories from the last summer. My heart is still happy when I find an email in my email box or a short message on facebook. It does not need to be much, but it still feels like we are together. Just for a little while. And I still hope that some people will return and we will enjoy more time together. Though that I try to convince myself it will probably never happen. Just that it hurts less.
četrtek, 12. september 2013
ponedeljek, 2. september 2013
Zombie and goodbye(s)
**This blog will be written in English as I will be also writing about some people that do not speak Slovene and might like to read this. I apologize for all grammar/vocabulary mistakes.**
Today I feel like a walking zombie. I haven't got enough sleep/rest in the last 3 weeks. It started with the exam on last Friday. I like to study, I enjoy when I learn new things, but I really hate that I need to learn things just that I can get a grade for it. I am too old for this. :P The combination of studying and working, trying to find some time to go running or do some other type of sport led to a huge lack of sleep. The exam was followed by the awesome Zermatt weekend. I was looking forward to this for weeks. The schedule was amazing, I was looking forward to meet some new IAESTE people and I really needed some time off after all the studying and working. My health did not agree with me. My head hurt like crazy, I was sick and tired and I spend the majority of Saturday evening in bed. However, I still met some really nice people, had some good conversations and I hope we will manage to spend some more time together until one of us leaves this country. ;)
The last week was a bit crazy. I came home from Zermatt quite late, spend the majority of the week in the lab and trying to clean my flat that looked like the atomic bomb would fell in at some point. I got a visit on Thursday evening: my mum and a daughter of my cousin. I was really looking to this, to doing the kids things, to spend time with them and put my head on off. I had nothing planned, no exam to study, no urgent work to do, no other things planned. However, together with this visit, the weekend was also full of goodbyes. Yeah, summer is over and people are leaving. It's something I have to accept. Now I understand how my friends were feeling when we were all going home from Australia and they were staying there. I still vividly remember how I felt when I came back home from Oz. At first everything felt so unreal, for the first few weeks I wished I could just sit on the plane and go back and be with all the friends I met there. I came over this. Time helps. I feel a bit similar now. I feel a bit sad that the group of people I occasionally shared my lunch breaks with is now gone, that there will be no one I could escape to when I don't want to eat with my group and that would always make me feel better. There will probably be no one that would make a crazy golf drinking game and actually make it work. I don't like goodbyes, but as one of my friends said yesterday: each goodbye just makes you stronger. What I always wish the most is that I would just have a little bit more time with people. Sometimes it happens that with some people you just connect, you don't need too many words, the conversation runs smoothly. Unfortunately this time it happened that I met one of the people of that kind just before he left. It happens, I just wish we would have met earlier, I think my life here would be a bit nicer having a friend more by my side. But I do believe we will all meet again. One day. Until then we have skype, gtalk and other virtual ways of communication.
It was a great weekend. Playing in the children's playground. Going to Uetliberg and enjoy sun. Going out and have a blast with IAESTE people. Talking to my mum. Drinking lots and lots and lots of coffee. Saying farewell.
So: goodbye to you all! Thanks for bringing some colour in my life and I believe we will meet again (soon). :)
Today I feel like a walking zombie. I haven't got enough sleep/rest in the last 3 weeks. It started with the exam on last Friday. I like to study, I enjoy when I learn new things, but I really hate that I need to learn things just that I can get a grade for it. I am too old for this. :P The combination of studying and working, trying to find some time to go running or do some other type of sport led to a huge lack of sleep. The exam was followed by the awesome Zermatt weekend. I was looking forward to this for weeks. The schedule was amazing, I was looking forward to meet some new IAESTE people and I really needed some time off after all the studying and working. My health did not agree with me. My head hurt like crazy, I was sick and tired and I spend the majority of Saturday evening in bed. However, I still met some really nice people, had some good conversations and I hope we will manage to spend some more time together until one of us leaves this country. ;)
The last week was a bit crazy. I came home from Zermatt quite late, spend the majority of the week in the lab and trying to clean my flat that looked like the atomic bomb would fell in at some point. I got a visit on Thursday evening: my mum and a daughter of my cousin. I was really looking to this, to doing the kids things, to spend time with them and put my head on off. I had nothing planned, no exam to study, no urgent work to do, no other things planned. However, together with this visit, the weekend was also full of goodbyes. Yeah, summer is over and people are leaving. It's something I have to accept. Now I understand how my friends were feeling when we were all going home from Australia and they were staying there. I still vividly remember how I felt when I came back home from Oz. At first everything felt so unreal, for the first few weeks I wished I could just sit on the plane and go back and be with all the friends I met there. I came over this. Time helps. I feel a bit similar now. I feel a bit sad that the group of people I occasionally shared my lunch breaks with is now gone, that there will be no one I could escape to when I don't want to eat with my group and that would always make me feel better. There will probably be no one that would make a crazy golf drinking game and actually make it work. I don't like goodbyes, but as one of my friends said yesterday: each goodbye just makes you stronger. What I always wish the most is that I would just have a little bit more time with people. Sometimes it happens that with some people you just connect, you don't need too many words, the conversation runs smoothly. Unfortunately this time it happened that I met one of the people of that kind just before he left. It happens, I just wish we would have met earlier, I think my life here would be a bit nicer having a friend more by my side. But I do believe we will all meet again. One day. Until then we have skype, gtalk and other virtual ways of communication.
It was a great weekend. Playing in the children's playground. Going to Uetliberg and enjoy sun. Going out and have a blast with IAESTE people. Talking to my mum. Drinking lots and lots and lots of coffee. Saying farewell.
So: goodbye to you all! Thanks for bringing some colour in my life and I believe we will meet again (soon). :)
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