Days like days always make me a bit sad and depressed. I spent the last week in Oxford having our Marie Curie ITN training. We had basic training in communication with media and microfocus beamlines. But in general it was meant to meet other participants and exchange some thoughts on our research. It was funny how we all came there with same fears and left with same thoughts how we spent great time together. Well, besides meeting awesome people, I also brought back a really bad cold with headaches and blocked nose which basically means I spent the day in bed trying to recover as soon as possible.
Mischa went to the USA already in the early morning, which means there is basically no one I can communicate. I can't believe I am living here for 11 months already and I still have no friends. I really tried, but nothing really works, it seems everything is just one way communication. I guess I am not prepared to be the one who will always organize the meetings after all. I know I might need just a bit more time, but days like days really make me sad. I miss my friends, someone that would come over with some aspirins, a smile and ice cream and to whom I could talk and not spend all my day watching "Rules of engagement".
I know I would probably find a bunch of things to do if I would not feel so bad, but it is a reality that I become really bored in a short time and I am not good with dealing with this. But hopefully I will feel better tomorrow and all these negative thoughts will go away.
